"Previously when I felt lost, one of the first things I
did was to search outside for answers. I looked to books, teachers, and gurus,
in the hope that they’d provide me with the ever-elusive solution. That’s
exactly what I did when I was first diagnosed with cancer. But I only ended up
feeling even more adrift because I was giving my own power away again and
again.
I FOUND THAT HAVING AN INSIDE-OUT VIEW MEANS being able to
fully trust my inner guidance. It’s as though what I feel has an impact on my
entire universe. In other words, because I’m at the center of my cosmic web,
the Whole is affected by me. So as far as I’m concerned, if I’m happy, the
universe is happy. If I love myself, everyone else will love me. If I’m at
peace, all of creation is peaceful, and so on.
If things seemed challenging, instead of trying to change
them physically (which is what I did pre-NDE), I began checking in with my
internal world. If I’m stressed, anxious, unhappy, or something similar, I go
inward and tend to that first. I sit with myself, walk in nature, or listen to
music until I get to a centered place where I feel calm and collected. I
noticed that when I do so, my external world also changes, and many of the
obstacles just fall away without my actually doing anything.
What I mean by being “centered” is experiencing being at the
center of my cosmic web, being aware of my position. This is really the only
place any of us ever are, and it’s important to feel our centrality at the core
of it.
But from time to time, I would forget my central place in
the cosmos. I got caught up in all the dramas, contradictions, angst, and pain
of the physical world and couldn’t see myself as one of the expanded,
magnificent, infinite beings we all truly are.
Luckily, I realized at those times that we never really
become disconnected from the center. Rather, we temporarily lose sight of it
and don’t feel the sense of peace and joy that comes from it. We get caught up
in the illusion of separation and can’t see that happiness and sadness go hand
in hand—like light and dark, yin and yang. Our sense of disconnection is simply
part of the illusion of duality that makes it difficult to see oneness forming
out of perceived separation. But getting centered means seeing through this and
once again feeling our infinite place at the center of it all . . . at the
center of oneness."
~ Anita Moorjani from Dying to Be Me: My Journey from
Cancer, to Near Death, to True Healing ~
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